Thursday, September 19, 2013

one heart... two places....

so there is so much to update that i can't even begin to address that, but to sum it up, we were able to wrap up all of our projects. It was a bit of a whirlwind. We also went to kenya for a week which was really fun, it was nice to have a break from all the crazy country director stuff. I have loved all of the things that i learned from being a country director living in Uganda. I recently had my wrap up meeting with the HELP office and it made me reflect on a lot of things about my experience in Uganda.
I was in Uganda for over 6 months and it was one of the hardest experiences of my life. But like i have grown to know, the hardest experiences tend to be the ones you are most grateful for. Which is very much true in this case. And now becuase of the incredibly amazing expereince i have i now have no idea how to be ok with where i am at in life. there is a quote that HELP posted on facebook that says this.

Truer words were never written for my current situation. Life here isn't bad, but its NOT uganda, and my heart is not whole while i am here. So even though there are good things happening in my life here like, i got a job, i have a car, my family is doing great and i have THE CUTEST nieces and nephews in the world.... my heart is still not full. How do you overcome that? how do you find peace and happiness again? right now the only option i see is to fly back and be with my people again, but the man upstairs has a different path he wants to take me on. I have a feeling it will be just as hard, and tiring, and im trusting, and im hoping I will be just as grateful for it once i get to the other side.




 but that part of the story hasn't been written yet, so i will just have to wait and see...